our miricle

I am writing this so I will never forget that Heavenly Father loves us and cares about us. After 5 miscarriages in 2 years we were beginning to think something was wrong with me. I would get to be seven or eight weeks along and then miscarry. So pretty much I was just figuring out I was pregnant and we were getting excited and then it would happen.

We kept getting impressions everything would be all right and we just had to wait. But why was I miscarrying so early on? Then we got pregnant again and we went to a doctor that had been referred to us. I had talked to her previously and she told me to come in as soon as I knew I was pregnant. So we went in at 6 weeks to see if she could see anything wrong. I had to go in 3 times in the previous days to get blood drawn. I had an ultrasound and the tech couldn’t see anything, but said it could just be still a couple of days too early. Then we went back to talk to the doctor. She said because there was nothing on the ultrasound and the levels in my blood were not looking good, that this baby would not be born alive. She said it would just turn cancerous. So she had us set up an appointment a week later to terminate the pregnancy.

We were devastated. But as the week progressed I didn’t feel right about it. So towards the end of the week I cancelled the appointment and called a specialist my friend had recommended. It took three more weeks for us to get in. Those 4 weeks were the hardest. I felt like the pregnancy was progressing but I was told the baby was dead so I was pretty much just waiting for a miscarriage. But at the same time I had a feeling of peace and that everything would be all right. I was so confused and thinking the baby was just dead inside of me was really tough and it was hard to function properly.

So when we went in to see the new doctor we were elated when he looked at everything and said the baby was fine. He told us that by now he would be able to see if something were wrong and things looked good. This new doctor was awesome. He was caring and for about the next 4 visits (about 2 months) he always did an ultrasound to make sure everything was alright.

The pregnancy was a typical one for me. I am a really bad pregnant lady. It is so not enjoyable. I get so tired and sick and don’t want to do anything! But we were so grateful that this baby was going to join our family it made it easier to deal with.

It wasn’t until Cooper came out (with the fattest, curly umbilical cord you have ever seen) that I realized I was still kind of doubting this baby was coming to us. Then we had a few more complications before we could make it out of the hospital. They couldn’t get his oxygen levels up, then they didn’t like where his blood sugars were. Then another day because of his bilirubin levels. But then we got to bring home our precious baby.

We are so excited that he is part of our family. We are so glad we listened to the spirit instead of a presumptuous doctor, who was going to terminate our baby. I am not writing this to diminish others miracles or say I am better than anyone else. I know others have much bigger trials and hardships. But I am truly grateful for my Heavenly Father in this and never want to forget how lucky we are to have our Cooper.